Thoughts and Whatnot

I haven't written in a while, and am using Times as the font, which is kinda scary, since I hate Times and would rarely if ever use it when I was designing presentations at my old job.

That being said, Hi, how have you been? How are things? What's new with me? Well, I have started my new session at Piven and am loving it. I had to drop the class I had originally signed up for and was not excited about the replacement class until I actually took the first one, and then it was love! Rehearsals start tomorrow for MAME. I am in the ensemble and considering it is my first show in Chicago and in many ways my first musical, I am happy with that and excited to be a sponge and soak everything up.

Yesterday I participated in my first student recital. I wish I could say that I was awesome, but I was ok. I have sung the song better in practice and in class (to me anyway). IDK, it feels like I started too low (a problem when I am nervous) and I forgot a line. I plowed ahead through that tried not to let it affect me. What got to me the most was that the verses, which are normally really strong, felt weak and the trouble spots were stronger. Which is a good thing, but I was so upset at myself. I felt like I let Julia down. Then I realized....I have only been singing with Julia for about 10 weeks (if that). I didn't let anyone down! My stage fright of singing alone was better (my leg did not shake uncontrollably on me), and singing in a recital is WAAY different than singing karaoke, cuz in karaoke it is all just for fun! So I gotta get out there and do more of it to get better at it!!

I do not like the cold weather we have had this year in Chicago and I REALLY hate the gray skies that have hung over the city like a blanket of depression for the past week. All this gray makes me blue and the cold makes me miserable. Sometimes I feel like the Chicago experiment has been a complete failure. I have not succeeded in holding down a job and I feel more alone than I ever did in Orlando. On the plus side, I have a scholarship to a great acting school and am kicking butt there and learning and I have an amazing voice teacher at a price I can afford. AND I am in a show, which is a bonus. My goal is to keep getting cast, so that when MAME ends, the next adventure can begin.

Gonna quote a movie now, just because it seems to sum up what I am feeling pretty well.... "It's like those Monty Python chaps say. No one expects the Spanish Inquisition." Or something like that.... Later all!