Alone Again.....Naturally.

Ok, yes, I am quoting Hugh Grant in "Love....Actually", but that is how I feel. And I hate feeling like I am alone.

But, that is how I feel. I work in an office and I have been sick from work and people working near me have not even known that I was out. There are 12 people in the sales office, so......

I had a great New Years visit with someone I had not seen in a long time. I witnessed firsthand how a group of friends I had once been a part of had grown and evolved over the years and was still strong. I have seen how friends in college have stayed strong through the year, and I remain on the outside of it all.

Sure I have a community of friends online, who comment on my facebook status and every once in a while send me a note. But how many return my calls or call me? No matter how many activities I try to take part in, I still spend most nights alone in my apartment. Am I really that hideous??

I was alone in Orlando, but it never felt like this. Maybe it was because I was doing a job I loved while now I do a job that I tolerate and would skip out on if the chance presented itself. I left the job I loved because I felt like I needed to grow up and take control of my bills. But my bills are only less out of control and I have more credit card debt then when I left.

Well, I am rambling on, and boring even myself in the process, so with that I bid you goodnight.