Slippery Slope

I realize that my last post had a lot to do with me being down and down on myself. Ever since my really FANTASTIC NYE, I seem to be falling down into the well of depression. While it is difficult not to fall into the whole "woe is me" thing (which I have not done yet), it is also hard to keep a smile on and pretend that I am happy. I just feel so....alone. It sucks.

For whatever reason, I cannot seem to make friends. At least, not the type of friendship where the friends actually want to spend time with me. I am good with the casual acquaintances who talk at work and go out to lunch once in a while, but the ones where you get together outside of work and do something?? Yeah, not so much. I do not know what it is about me, but......I am not going to change the core of who I am to fit some mold that others want me to fit in.

I know I am never going to be buddy buddy with my boss....not going to happen because I really have nothing to say to him. And if he wants to be an ass because I tell someone on my team that I am buried and cannot even begin to think about their presentation on a given day because I got a presentation at 9am, due in final form by 5pm, it is 3 and the text has been approved and I am trying to figure out pictures and some sort of design...well...tough! He did not want to hear my side of the story and just give me grief because I told someone I was a bit overwhelmed and could not think about his presentation at that point in time! Whatever. Just one more door shutting behind me as I am mentally getting ready to leave this job. Course, you need another one lined up, but still....

Ok, rehab via GH Aerosmith. I beat it on Hard last night, but when I hit expert on this and 80's, I get to the last song on the 2nd set and I cannot get past it...but can beat the songs after it when I play quick play mode. Hmmmmm.....