Doors Close, Windows Open...somewhere

I lost my job today.

Wow, that is an inspiring way to start, isn't it? =) Talk about one of those out-of-left-field, hit you in the solar plexus, knock you on your ass moments. The reason given was that my "skills do not match the direction we want to take the department." Uhm.....ok? I seriously think my direct manager had it in for me and did not like me. Granted, the man NEVER talked to me. I have been after him for 4 months to do my annual review. The one I do the most work has never said anything negative to me, which makes this even more shocking. I do so much for her and she has never had a complaint. Why now? What happened? You have to love those questions. There is no answer, you have to pick up your bootstraps and keep on keeping on.

Here's the thing though. A good number of the AE's, EXCEPT the ones that I was supporting told me that it was BS, that I was the best AE they had, that I made things look and sound more professional, that I always had presentations done ahead of schedule, that ...... Basically, I rocked in their mind. And so many of them offered to put out feelers with agencies that they work with to see if there were any openings. That felt so AWESOME! I have never had anyone cry over my leaving, and that happened today. The one downside, is that I did not have the chance to say goodbye in person to everyone that I wanted to. They want to get you out the door as quietly as possible.

I could be pissed off and negative about all of this. I could. I mean, I have had two "adult" jobs in Chicago and been fired from both of them, which is so crazy as I had not been fired from a job before I moved here. Which is really weird that working in Chicago would get me fired TWICE. But that would be destructive and not help, so why bother. So, I am being a dork and quoting a line from The Sound of Music. "When the Lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window." Which I do believe. The job I just lost was an open window that introduced me to some great people who really touched my life in a positive way and who I hope to stay in contact with.

But now I have to move forward. I have no idea where I am going to go from here, other than do the happy little march down to the unemployment office on Tuesday. Today will probably be spent going through the box of stuff I removed from my desk. I really kept a lot of shoes hidden under my desk.....

Ok, the tequila is kicking in and I am getting loopy. This is as good a place as any to say, "Always look on the bright side of life".....